Sunday

Grad Night :D

So even though I've been invited thrice, I finally went to Grad Night. And before you up and call me an anti-social hermit, allow me to explain. You see, I'm a morning person, not a night person. So, frankly, the idea of being locked in a lighted building until 4 in the morning really didn't appeal to me. I was usually in bed by the time this thing started.  But peer pressure kicked in as it always does and I found myself yawning at the entrance of our school building.

It actually turned out to be a ton of fun and I never knew so many giant inflatable spectacles could fit in our little gym. My first stop was lazer tag. I ended up going through it three times but I think the funnest time was the last. The group I went with was hilarious. I quote from the very bored freshman I stood by who was describing just how bellybutton peircings worked, "You stick the earing in your bellybutton and then swallow the back of it. Then it goes right down," he roughly traced his intestines with his finger to show its path, "and clicks right on."
I laughed out loud. They didn't call us 'hicks in the sticks' fer nuthin.

The lazer tag game took place in a dark maze made up of black tarps and creepy workers who appeared at random around the corner.

It was this time that, for once in my life, I was winning something. I was ducking behind the tarps and then popping up in the windows and bulls-eyeing the blinking vests of my peers, causing them to cry out in despair as their gun went out and, for five seconds, they 'died'. I zipped around corners and caught them unsuspecting and even managed to win a few battles of just shooting at each other when we both turned the same corner and rammed into each other. For someone who'd only ever won Carmen San Diego in the 6th grade, it felt great!

But there were those that were more competitive than I and began to get fed up with my shoot-and-giggle-then-run tactic. One of those people finally cornered me after I had shot her down and her gun reloaded. She grabbed my gun arm and forced it above my head, shoving me against the tarp and aiming for the blinking triangle on my vest, making me feel like I was in some high-action spy movie. Luckily I could still move my wrist and managed to aim and hit hers first. She dropped my arm, hung her head, and walked off, defeated. Meanwhile I straightened my vest and shook my head, reminded why I was always content to let others win.

Next was the ultimate dodgeball dome where I was pummeled in the face and then the huge, air-filled wrecking ball where I was pummeled in the stomach. I decided after that that it was time to go swimming.

Now, just so you all know for future reference, don't grab me by the legs and drag me through water at one in the morning. It has a tendancy to make me grouchy. I love the kid so I hope I didn't kick him too hard, but it was one. In the morning. Hello.

I finally got out and decided I could use some icecream to maybe keep my eyelids half-way open. But what turned out to be more energizing was the people I sat by. There was tinsil on the table and one of the guys stuck a piece between his teeth and began blowing, making it flutter. We all laughed and grabbed out own strip of tinsel (someone even grabbing a whole handful) with the warning to not accidentally inhale it. For half an hour we entertained ourselves and everyone else within two tables as the seniors got their prizes.

After that, it finally came to an end. So, half my hair still wet and the rest frizzing up, my make-up washed clean (except for the mascara which was slightly running down my face). and with bleary, red, and bagged eyes, I went to find my shoes. I walked passed a classmate and his friends and smiled a 'hello' at as I passed. He kind of gave me a look like he was supposed to tell me something but I thought nothing of it and just kept walking until, a few seconds later, he tapped on my damp shoulder.

I turned back around, my eyes blinking at opposite times, "Hey."
"Hey," he grinned, "Um, Jeremy and I were going to the temple to do baptisms for a group date. You want to come with me?"
It took a minute to register but once it did, I suddenly, at 4 a.m., wasn't quite as tired. Nor did I feel quite as ugly, "Yeah! That'd be great!"

Now it is here that I must brag about the awesome young men we have 'round these parts, whether they feel the same way or not. For all their rambunctiousness and boys-locker-room stories, there's something there. I've seen many of them ask less popular girls to dances, wake up at 4 a.m. to anonymously do our bishop's farm chores for him last Christmas morning, gentlemanly open doors for girls, make fun bets to get peers to go to seminary class, leave their friends for a moment to encourage their siblings in the hallways of school, creatively stand up for peers being made fun of, work hard, dress nice, know the true definition of fun, share their talents, and send text messages like this:

"Hey we are going to leave at 9 30 in the morning on tuesday and don't forget your temple recommend and thanks for agreeing to go on this date and for being worthy and keeping your virtue :-)"

Smiles, Quirks, and Gummy Bears

Usually the second-to-last week of school drags for me. But not this year! I'm not sure why, but some of life's amusing little quirks seemed to keep coming up, making it go by so much quicker.

1. Creating a parade with a silly marching song on my iPod. My baby brother led, duster-baton in hand, and our dog Trance held up the rear.

2. Finding a less-popular friend of mine in the hallway and chucking a bag of gummybears at him since it was his birthday.

3. Getting my jeans all wet and muddy by splashing through the irrigation ditch--just in time for another friend to come over and see me in such a make-up muddled mess.

4. Showing up to an 8:30 school dance fashionably late. (8:36).

5. Getting thrown across the room twice during the Hokey Pokey during that dance.

6. Watching Little Rascals for the first time ever! (May I just say, L. O. L!!)

7. Helping my friend write three fake Dear John letters, one based around the metaphor of a burrito...long story.

8. Discovering a new way to do my hair.

9. The ultimate cherry on top of it all: A morning side and stake conference.

This is going to sound really weird, but after that morning side I was what my friends called 'hyper'. Not kidding. I was bouncing in my seat, giggling at everything, and just in love with the whole world. But I do have an explanation. 
We had a general authority speak at it, Elder Samuelson. And before then, despite all those wonderful things, all the lies of the world had somehow seeped into my head and again I was feeling a little down on myself. Again. My mood was grumpy and my thoughts were grumpy. But I forced a smile, having a feeling that all my seemingly-unanswered prayers and questions would be answered there.
And so they were. He spoke on reaching our potential and I wish I could copy and paste the entire thing to show you all but I'll just say that all my doubts were cleared, my purpose was renewed, and I even gained some counsel to keep it that way. In short, I felt great! All smiles, I thanked this amazing man when it was over and then basically skipped my way towards my friends. I know it sounds silly, but, in my mind, it was awesome! Where else can you walk into a room, having been down and out for quite some time, and then an hour later walk out acting like you've never had a problem in your life?

Maybe its because, compared to others, I really haven't. Or maybe its just because, like many a blind man in the scriptures, He had opened my eyes to new and clear things and I felt to go away rejoicing. Maybe both. I don't know, I guess I'm just grateful for smiles, and quirks, and gummy bears.



Monsterous and Miniscule Miracles

Okay, this is another scripture study one but just bear with me because I whenever I get a new idea I have to share it with someone. Just ask my friends.

So I was reading in the Book of Mormon, in Helaman 11. It related the story of a man named Nephi who was deeply saddened by the wickedness of his people. And so he did what most amazing people like him do: prayed. He asked the Lord to bring on a famine in order to 'stir them up in remembrance of the the Lord their God'. And so a famine came.

That'd be pretty cool, I thought. It seemed people in the scriptures always had this immense power granted to them. (and probably for good reason) But then I realized, in this case, it really wouldn't do me much good. First off, I live in a small town where just about everyone already goes to church. Second off, we live in a desert and everyone's apple blossoms have already been blown off their trees. So the threat of a famine wouldn't really be that effective and the only thing anyone could call them to repentence for would be falling asleep in sacrament meeting.

I shrugged it off and was about to read again when I realized something. Nephi wasn't just trying to show off--he was trying to help bring others to their Savior, trying to do His will.  Maybe we didn't always have these huge miracles that effected an entire nation, but it seems that every true follower of Jesus Christ is allowed something to help them accomplish His purposes.

For a mother, its the miracle of added strength and awareness at two in the morning, though thin it may be. For a missionary, the troubled stranger that just happened to be standing at the same crosswalk as them. For a teenager, the scripture in Seminary that, in such masterly words, illustrated the solution to a concern that, to others, seemed so insignificant. For a father, the miraculously added digits to a paycheck after a month where tithing came hard. For a child, the discovery of a lost toy after diligent prayer. For the elderly, the unexpected visit of a busy child.

Sunsets, a cheerful bird chirp, a smile, a hug, forgiveness,the art of music, a random act of service--miracles are everywhere! They may not be huge, but they're just the size we need. As another favorite scripture of mine goes, "...I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them." (1 Nephi 3: 7).




Happy Mother's Day!!

For very obvious reasons, today is going to be a tribute to my mom. Lately, somewhere between mood-swings, homework, practice, and my ADHD worthy thoughts (I still don't know how I got from icecream to the legend of zelda to piano all in the same thirty seconds) I see glances of why an all-knowing Heavenly Father sent me down the remarkable woman I call my mother. I'd like to quote Abraham Lincoln, "All that I am or ever hope to be, I owe to my angel mother."

So here's a few reasons I have to be grateful:

1. For sacrificing any/all interests, sleep, and steady emotions to bring me into this world.

2. Not labeling me utterly useless when I would cry myself into unconciousness as an infant (not kidding).

3. "Hey Mom."
"What?"
"Hey Mom."
"What?"
"Hey Mom"
"What?"
 
4. For putting up with my early-years' diet of bread, water, and doritos.

5. For every potty-break on every long road trip. (Sticks included ;)

6. For having light-blonde, curly hair that's really easy to spot in a big, scary crowd after an elementry performance.



7. For patiently enduring my random health-kick in Junior High.

8. For teaching me how to be a lady and do more than run my dirty fingers through my hair and run out the door.

9. For loving Dad.

10. For featuring this on your blog (haha revenge!)

11. For being that person who, as soon as you showed up to take me home, all the tears started over again.

12. For resorting to only rolling your eyes when I worry over every thing.

13. For allowing my creativity to blossom and encouraging it.

14. For not letting me quit piano and sending me in early to more fully learn math.

15. For the much-needed hugs

16. For teaching me not only how to work, but how to stand back, wipe the sweat off your forehead with your hat, and mutter, "Now would you look at that."

17. For pretending not to hear me when I bust out my favorite song in front of the mirror in the morning and then suddenly realize you're standing right there.

18. For wiping all the tears, even the pointless ones.

19. For all the band-aids, both outside and inside.

20. For just holding me after I come home from College-Algebra in tears, cursing formulas and all who understand them.

21. For redoing my room (and leaving plenty of space to dance :)

22. For gently leading me to the right.

23. For teaching life's neccesites: how to walk, tie my shoes, make a sandwhich, go to church, serve, and pray.

24. For always seeing my potential when I most certainly don't.

25. For all the prom dresses and girl's-day-outs

26. For such a pretty yard and house.

27. For having time to just talk

28. For the grey-hairs gained in helping me learn how to drive.

29. For teaching me to not buy anything unless I really, really want it (which is probably why, when on a birthday-shopping-spree to Wal-Mart, I left with nothing but a pack of gum.)

30. For helping me gain a love for history, sunsets, America, cleanliness, simplicity, Saver's, dark chocolate, Wendy's milkshakes, and Elvis.

31. For doing so much for your family as well as ours and preping ahead of time to be the best Mom you could be.

32. For reminding me that my Savior loves me through it all because, well, so do you...


The Finish Line

Only one more week of track left. Can you believe it?! That means only one more week of morning runs and bleachers. Only one more week of jumping jacks and push-ups. Only one more week of sore legs and blistered feet. Only one more week of hearing my teammates sing pop songs during warm-ups. Only one more week of having one of those teammates pulling 'break-checks' in front of me every so often on the track. Only one more week of pushing someone's truck around the auditorium and piling into Coach's van for a trip to the dunes. Only one more week of adrenalin rushes, sunburns, forgetting my jersey, missionary tag, and frankies (that's a stretch by the way).
All this considering I don't go to state--something I seriously (and secretely gleefully) doubt.
It's a bitter sweet thing, but boy have I learned a ton:

  •  For one, it's windy here. Really windy.
  • Coach rocks! 
  •  I can run a whole lap in a minute twenty-two (I'm really not sure if that gives me any bragging rights).
  • They don't call us 'hicks in the sticks' fer nuthin! You should've seen my team when an icecream truck turned the corner in Winslow. You'd think we'd never known civiliation.
  • Bleachers really aren't that bad half-way through the season.
  • I can't high-jump.
  • Track helps you fit into prom dresses. I recommend it.
  • My track shoes are too big.
  • I didn't know I could push myself so much.
  • I can't swim.
  • The definition of "ow..."
  • Practice may be over, but unless you get the keys from coach before the entire team heads for the locked locker rooms, you might be there another half-hour. 
  • Bus seats do not make good sleeping quaters.
  • Fake grass?! How do they do that?
  • So that's why they too much sugar is bad for you...
  • Being done with practice improves my time quicker than winning a race. Wow. I know where my heart is.
  • Running a race slowly is better than not running it at all.
  • I've run plenty of full miles in my lifetime. Perhaps today I should hang back with the girl with asthma who has to take walking breaks...Sometimes there are different races the Lord would have us win.
  • Personal Record!!
  • You're not the only one who's nervous at the starting line.
  • You get what you pay for.
  •  Huh. Go figure. I can do it.
  • Boy, do my parents love me!
  • My friends rock!
  • The circle (or track) of life: We have hurdles. We trip. Sometimes it feels like we're running in cirlces. There are different stages, or laps, with different strategies. We sometimes feel like keeling over. There are those who cheer us on and coaches who train us for good or bad. Sometimes it seems like so many are so much better than us or maybe we look back at those who we think are less than us. But, in the end, we all traveled the same distance.
  • When we reach the finish line, may we all feel like we gave it all we could.