Sunday

My $500 Weekend!

I've gained two things this weekend. Experience, and something close to an ear infection.

But holy mackerels! Everything was worth it! It was held at a Hilton Hotel so at first this small-town girl felt a little overwhelmed. But it wasn't long before she was excitedly going up and down the fancy elevator (with a clear wall!) and slightly blushing when the other attendant asked her age.

In fact, my mom said I was less scared than her. But, as fate (or divine intervention I'd like to think) would have it, three people we knew were there, including my next-door neighbor. As my relieved mother said when she picked me up that day, "You're being watched over Doll."

I think she knows about the elevators. About a big city and about her silly daughter who insists on jumping onto certain rollercoasters without so much as knocking over the height limit sign. And so three others were sent there as well. Earthly parents are truly in cahoots with the Heavenly ones I've decided.

As for the height the limit, I was the second-to-youngest there. The youngest was a girl I know who is sixteen. There were a couple of ladies who looked about college aged and then everyone else there were mothers and grandmothers. (I found out there that it was technically a women's association that hosted it. There were a handful of men there. And once it got to the topic of Jane Austen I deemed them very brave souls.)

But that was all fine by me. Since the conference was Latter-Day Saint based, they were all so nice and I felt I had entered a crowd of new friends. Not to mention the topics they would get on. Characters, plot lines, other books they'd read, new ideas, different ways to word things--these people were nerds! Just like me!

The classes were awesome! Though I had a cold and my ears were still plugged from the trip down, I found myself so lost in their topics that I would forget about that all. I will admit that there was one class I found myself a little grumpy in, but for the most part, it was great! I actually know the physics of a story now! I didn't even know a story had physics before. And that's  a science I get.

I learned about how to catch a reader's attention on the first page I learned about how to write a romance (Basically, don't write Twilight. That's what they told me. Ask me later, I'll explain it), about how to write historical fiction, family history, freelancing, convincing characters, you name it! I even learned how to not over-describe someone frowning.

Life skills also came with all the art stuff though. For example, don't sign up to meet with an agent if you're only on chapter two of your story. And if you do anyways, answer their questions intelligently. That way you don't have to feel like a flat amateur the rest of the conference every time you see them again. And especially when they're the award-winning Lisa Mangum.

I even learned how important it is to tell people thanks. After classes, people would line up to ask the speaker questions. It was really fun to wait in those lines and then, once it was my turn, simply smile and say "Thanks!" 
I never thought such an act could actually surprise someone so much.

Also, if paparazzi is an issue, I definitely want to be an author. I sat by two and didn't even know it until later that day! I hated it and loved it at the same time because then I had this perspective that anyone in class could be a professional author. I could be sitting by anyone.

And, of course, there was the reminder that late nights and early mornings don't do much for a cold and aching ears.

One of my favorite parts though, was when my mom and I got to talk. I was staying and my aunt and uncle's house so she'd drop me off and pick me up everyday. I was always so excited to see her car out there so I could run from that big, fancy hotel, into a small place I knew, and tell her everything. And that time we got while she  drove was the type that always provides for those lessons you carry with you the rest of your life. The ones you refer to when teaching your own kids and, on those rough occasions, when your simply teaching yourself.

I guess what I'm saying is that it was so worth it! What I gained you really can't put much of a price on. Courage to do something different, time with my dearest of dear mother, and a humongous burst of direction, inspiration, and vigor to develop my talent.

I entered the beginning of my story into a contest and didn't win. But the judges, being the awesome people they are, took the time to sincerely critique each one. There were three different papers by three different judges. I got to the last one--the one that seemed to be the harshest--and after reading through all the corrections I needed to make, came across a line that sent me reeling,

"We need more books like this in the world."

In life, you may be critiqued by the great master of our trade, but its because He knows what He's talking about! He does it sincerely and out of love. He sees your amazing potential and knows, without a doubt, that you can reach it.

He needs someone like you in this world.

Bittersweet

This week has been pretty eventful. More eventful than most at least. Partly because my 18th birthday was this week! Can you believe it?! I sure can't...People were telling me that I could buy smokes all day. I think I'll just stick to voting....

 And, just to stay true to the facts, it was also my great-grandmother's birthday and a friend's birthday. Though I'm not sure what they did for theirs, in celebration of my officially becoming an adult, I decided to go all elementry and have my mom bring cupcakes to economics class. Though not all my friends were in that class, it was really the only one that would work. Besides that, putting cupcakes and economics in the same sentence is just sort of fun :)

I also used some of those cupcakes to ask a certain classmate to the Sadie Hawkin's dance with some corny signs that read, "It would be the best birthday present ever if you would go to Sadie's with me." Since he wasn't in ecomonics, I left it in the office. Unfortunetly when I passed him in the hall shortly after he got it, he saw me but nothing seemed to register. I guess I should've let him know who's birthday it was...

Anyways, I also discovered this week that I'm supposed to have a 'query letter' prepared for that conference. But I didn't even know how to pronounce that word, let alone what it was. Thankfully, there's geniuses out there who have invented convenient things like Google so my panic didn't last too long. Apparently it consists of three parts: a statement of the length and type of your story, a summary, and then something about yourself.

I was already a little daunted from the get-go because my story wasn't at all finished. I don't know how many pages it is nor do I have the word count. But numbers just seemed such a shallow look at a story because I could tell you how long my story is. It's hours lying in my bed daydreaming. It's half a notebook of planning and ideas. It's running two miles nearly everyday and coming up with fun details. It's countless Tangled clips and trailers that inspire me to no end. All the drawings taped to my wall, all the conversations my friends have endured, and all the moments when I just want to slam the keyboard against my forehead.

Unfortunetly, this thing also has to be under one page so that wasn't happening. Instead, I sidestepped the length, told the genre, and moved onto the summary. Once that was done, I hit another block: lists of writing accomplishments. All the samples I'd looked at said something along the lines of, "This is my third novel published, I'm in this-and-this critique group, and I have tied in first in a Fictional-Romance contest." 

Yeah. That wasn't happening either. So, throwing my shoulders back, I squeezed all I could out of my life experience thus far. I wrote how I've entered a few contests (though I've never placed), got an english class award,  and....have a 4.0 GPA. (hey, it worked on the scholarships). I was really tempted to write about winning an award for an 8th grade essay, but I doubted that would get me much credit.

So, in short, I'm going to march right up to Mrs. Lisa Mangum, hand her my letter, and take whatever I can get.

I jumped that hurdle. The next one, however, was a little tougher.

Every Mr. G's customer (in other words, the entire town) knows that my plan after college was to go to Brigham Young University. Ever since an educational fireside when I was about 14, it's been the plan. One of the many reasons my mom sent me to EFY was so that I could get in a bit of a campus tour.

And then the e-mail came.

I stared at my screen blankly, a little bummed but probably more surprised than anything. Everyone said I would make it. My parents said I would make it.  I said I would make it. The only one that didn't say so was the college.
The longer I sat there, the more it sunk in. And the more it sunk in, the harder it became to hold back the tears of disapointment. Of course, I didn't move though, so eventually, with a pathetic whimper, the flood began.

I looked at my mom, who was standing behind me, to see that her eyes were watery too, which made it both better and worse. She muttered the most sincere, loving apologies I think I've ever heard and which made me feel like the most loved daughter on the planet but eventually there was nothing for it but to be a girl. To run into my room and throw myself onto my bed princess-style and cry into a pillow.

I'm not sure why. It wasn't like I was desparingly sad. I wasn't even really angry. I guess I'd just got my hopes up to such a high level that it was a bit of a fall.

I cried and cried yet I knew I couldn't complain too much. My parents and I had been praying that I wouldn't get accepted into the wrong college so I knew that this was, of sorts, and answer to prayer. So, through the mess, I muttered prayers aloud, thanking my Father in Heaven that he cared enough to answer this prayer, though it hit hard. I thanked him for my dad who came in and, with little words, gave me a long hug that said everything. For a mom who was just as much into this as I was. And for a baby brother who came in and, after asking why I hadn't made it, left the room with the explanation of, "Ah baracles."

My thoughts exactly.

I also thanked him for texting and for awesome friends that I know are reading this right now :). They made me feel sooo good about myself. I even felt that, after texting them, I could move on. I even had plans to work on the above-mentioned, unfinished story. But my brain wasn't in the fun-creative mode so, again, there was nothing for it but to be a girl:

I grabbed some birthday chocolate and plopped down to Pride and Prejiduce.

(Something tells me I'll be using that method a lot in the near future.)

The cool part about all of this was what I learned about myself, about prayer, and about my Heavenly Father. I learned that I can give a sincere thanks through tears. I learned that guardian angels probably do exist, though most of them are visible. (Including my little neighbor 'Bean' who came over the next day to tell me she was sorry about not making it :) I learned what college I'm not supposed to go at this time and have decided to apply for every other decent-sounding one I can get my hands on. I've determined to see this more as a stepping-stone and less of a stumbling-block. It only makes sense with what I've been asking for.

And, through that whole wet-pillow episode, you can bet I felt supporting arms around me. Despite everything. Despite being silly and only applying for one college with all the confidence in the world. Despite crying over a prayer answered and despite feeling a little overdramatic at the time, He knew my disapointment. He knew my hopes and my frustrations. But He also knew the bigger picture and I felt that that's exactly what he was leading me towards if I would take His hand and let him lead.

Funny. After reading about Captain Moroni that week, I'd also been praying to feel closer to the Lord.

Make that two answered prayers.

And, after having a Stake President looking me directly in the eyes and telling me "It'll work out", and a homemade birthday cake and song by my cousins and family, I think I'll be just fine :)

My Favorite School-Related Project

Every month or so, my awesome Aunt JuJu encourages me to display some of my clay stuff in the school library. But since I usually post on my blog today and since I've had so much fun with this newest one, I've decided to show it on here.

Presenting: my Valentine's Day creation. Now Awarding This Year's Top 10 Couples!!

The Cutest: Rapunzel and Eugene (yes, I'm biased. This is basically my all-time favorite movie)



The Moodiest: Bella and Edward. (This one was hard to make. Not because of detail, but because I felt like Edward was glaring at me through my computer screen.)


The Most Herioc: Megamind and Roxanne (Also an all-time favorite of mine)


The Most Dramatic: Romeo and Juliet


It's funny. Admit it.


Next, the Silliest: Candace and Jeremy. (Phineas and Ferb. My personal stress reliever next to VeggieTales and icecream)


The Most Sophisticated: Ms. Bennett and Mr. Darcy. No couple contest is complete without it I think.


Most Epic: Aragon and Arwen


"I choose a mortal life!" (Unless your Bella, of course)

The Most Aggressive: Katness and Peeta. (I've never read the books so I had to take a friend's word for it that this would make sense.)



The Most Fantasy (at my Aunt JuJu's, or Ms. Clifford herself's suggestion): Ms. Clifford and The Rock



Lasly, the Most Tragic: Joseph City Alumni and the Pandora Radio Station



The week that website was banned was a sad week at the Wildcat home.

Anyways, I just thought that would make a fun post. Hope it made you smile (because I was cracking up 10:30 at night when the idea came).  Things like this make me sooo grateful for encouraging people like my Aunt Julie. For my encouraging friends. For my parents who help keep me supplied. And, of course, for He who blessed me with the talent in the first place, knowing I'd need some sort of outlet for my constantly-running mind.